so here's the story. there's this guy at my school right...lets call him...*derick* so derick its a decent lookin guy...looks around 26 although he is actually 32. when school started back in august, a friend of mine was kinda feelin him. he gave off the impression that he was tired of playin games and was lookin to settle down. he had been married b4 and has a 9-yr-old daughter (for whom he is seeking full custody) but thats besides the point. once he showed interest in my girl...lets call her *jennifer* they started lightweight "talkin" till she found out he was obviously in search of a f**k buddy. he was always tryin to get her to come to "college park" to his house. (sn: he always want ppl to come to his damn house) so she decided not to mess wit him like that. cuz she know what he about. so basically this dude did his rotations and tried to talk to every good lookin girl in the class 1 by 1. on the sly. everytime a new girl came around...this nigga tried to get it in. after all this...he got less and less attractive and became a super lame.
so recently i met this girl, new friend lets call her *kenya*...in my new classes. and she is really pretty and really nice. we were talkin the other day about how fed up she is wit men playin around wit her feelings and she was on the verge of givin up on men.
so what had happened was...
kenya started talkin to derick and was discussin the situation wit me and my other friend *victoria*. now victoria was one of the girls that derick tried to scheme on. but she wasnt havin it. so what we did was put kenya up on derick's schemin ass ways. we told her not to STOP talkin to him...but just to keep her eyes open and dont catch feelings too quick. bc any of us that know him good from our other classes would warn her ass too!
so somehow he found out and said to her, "i heard u been listenin to some haters" haters bruh??? really? aint nobody tryna hate on u...i dont want u bruh! im just tryna put this innocent girl up on ur trifflin ways b4 she get herself hurt! i woulda felt bad if i DIDNT say anything then she end up gettin seriously hurt by this dude. victoria knows first hand bc he fed her the same bs like 3 months ago. he even tried to talk to me on the sly KNOWING good and well i got a man!
anyways she appreciated us tellin her wussup. and she told us about he tried to get her to come "to college park" to his house. and within 2 days she seen some of his true colors. plus...this nigga is 32 and she is 20! c'mon bruh...maybe if u wasnt so damn trifflin...u wouldnt have to worry! crazy.
i got an idea!! this is what ima do: back in january i posted this post about some of my favorite slow jamz...u all commented and added a few of ur favs and mentioned that u were unfamiliar with some of the songs i posted. so i decided to one by one...give u an opportunity to check em out...and see why i like em so much! i will be going down the list one by one...day by day :)
#1: trey songz: jupiter love
(idk why they put the song over the "last time" video. losers. but its the best i could find)
Sharieka Bryanso uh...im fillin out this thing online right...and why the gender section got 3 options instead of 2??? F M and T??? wtf is T?? Tranny?? Why the hell is that an option?? damn 2010...u breakin my heart!
i was just now reminded of this line i used to hear too many times...
"You cute...for a dark skinned girl"
yeah?? and may i ask what the hell is that supposed to mean? cuz im dark skinned im supposed to be ugly and ashy??? why cant i just be cute? Fortunately...i dont give a damn about stuff like that anymore. i love my chocolateness! i just never understood.
You never hear:
"You cute...for a light skinned girl..."
i guess light skinned girls are just "expected" to be cute. so if they stumble upon a busted light skinned girl...do they say..."she ugly...for a light skinned girl"?
so right now its 3:03 am. and i have an 8am class. please tell me why im still up!
first off...the fact that i had an 8am class yesterday morning forced me to sleep all afternoon when i got home. woke up when it was dark. so im up. im pretty sure this is the beginning of a very screwed up cycle.
my week started horribly. sorry no details. bc if i start talkin bout the events that lead to that first sentence...i will get pissed off all over again. and i dont need that bc i think things are beginning to look up. i'll give u a clue...just when i needed it the most...i found the $10 i thought i lost this morning. yay!
lately i been thinkin a lot about my future. i've been in school a lot longer than i wanted to be. and i wont be done anytime soon. again, no details cuz it might make me cry. but, over the weekend i got a sudden burst of optimism. i pretty much mapped out my whole academic/work career between now and the end of grad school. makes me feel good. makes me wish time would go by even faster than it already is.
Then, i think about real life. like...my future outside of school and work. One thing u all might need to know about me is, my biggest goal in life...believe it or not...is to be a wife and mother. i want nothing more than to marry the love of my life and bear children that come to be perfect representations of our best attributes. i am not one of those "career women" (no offense of course) who prefers to reach a certain step on the corporate ladder b4 they decide to make a family. thats not how it works in my world. i do want to finish school and be a Neonatal Nurse Practitioner <----click the link)...and i WILL. but to me, it comes secondary. Yet...i MUST be smart about it. i know i am not ready for children yet because i do wanna reach a certain place in my education where i feel like i can take on such a big responsibility. but here's my thing: my initial plan was to wait til im done wit school to have my babies...but...what do i do when school is takin much longer than i anticipated?? do i keep putting it all on hold?? i mean...madd ppl go to school with children...if they can do it...why cant i?