"You cute...for a dark skinned girl"

 

(me n my old friend Kandey in 2007)

i was just now reminded of this line i used to hear too many times...

"You cute...for a dark skinned girl"

yeah?? and may i ask what the hell is that supposed to mean? cuz im dark skinned im supposed to be ugly and ashy??? why cant i just be cute? Fortunately...i dont give a damn about stuff like that anymore. i love my chocolateness! i just never understood. 

You never hear:

"You cute...for a light skinned girl..."

i guess light skinned girls are just "expected" to be cute. so if they stumble upon a busted light skinned girl...do they say..."she ugly...for a light skinned girl"? 

hmmm...

life...

so right now its 3:03 am. and i have an 8am class. please tell me why im still up!

first off...the fact that i had an 8am class yesterday morning forced  me to sleep all afternoon when i got home. woke up when it was dark. so im up. im pretty sure this is the beginning of a very screwed up cycle.

my week started horribly. sorry no details. bc if i start talkin bout the events that lead to that first sentence...i will get pissed off all over again. and i dont need that bc i think things are beginning to look up. i'll give u a clue...just when i needed it the most...i found the $10 i thought i lost this morning. yay!

lately i been thinkin a lot about my future. i've been in school a lot longer than i wanted to be. and i wont be done anytime soon. again, no details cuz it might make me cry. but, over the weekend i got a sudden burst of optimism. i pretty much mapped out my whole academic/work career between now and the end of grad school. makes me feel good. makes me wish time would go by even faster than it already is.

Then, i think about real life. like...my future outside of school and work. One thing u all might need to know about me is, my biggest goal in life...believe it or not...is to be a wife and mother. i want nothing more than to marry the love of my life and bear children that come to be perfect representations of our best attributes. i am not one of those "career women" (no offense of course) who prefers to reach a certain step on the corporate ladder b4 they decide to make a family. thats not how it works in my world. i do want to finish school and be a Neonatal Nurse Practitioner <----click the link)...and i WILL. but to me, it comes secondary. Yet...i MUST be smart about it. i know i am not ready for children yet because i do wanna reach a certain place in my education where i feel like i can take on such a big responsibility. but here's my thing: my initial plan was to wait til im done wit school to have my babies...but...what do i do when school is takin much longer than i anticipated?? do i keep putting it all on hold?? i mean...madd ppl go to school with children...if they can do it...why cant i? 

lemme stop ranting.

Favorite Slow Jamz...

I'm sure im not the only one...so, u know those songs that u will never get tired of? The ones u can put on repeat and go to sleep? I decided to start a list of the *slow jamz* that make me sing in front of the mirror in my panties with my hair brush in my hand! I know this aint it...but this is all i can think of at the moment. I'll add more as i remember. If u never heard any of these songs...i suggest u youtube it! (no particular order)

1. Jupiter Love: Trey Songz
2. On Top: Trey Songz
3. In the Middle: Trey Songz
4. Everything: Marques Houston
5. Cant Wait Til Later: Bobby Valentino
6. Doin' Just Fine: Boyz II Men
7. Complicated: Nivea
8. What You Tryna Do: Jagged Edge
9. Healing: Jagged Edge
10. Remedy: Jagged Edge
11. Empty: Raheem Devaughn (me and the bf's "song")
12. Freakin' Me: Jamie Foxx & Marsha Ambrosius
13. Slow: Jamie Foxx
14. Damage: Chris Brown
15. Lay Down: Floetry
16. Getting Late: Floetry
17. Say Yes: Floetry
18. If I Was A Bird: Floetry
19. Brand New: Drake
20. Suffocate: J. Holiday

What are some of ur favorite slow jamz??

ugh

ugh...first post of the new year...and NO i havent been ghost...i been on this bih everyday! But, i kinda wanted to start the new year with a new signature and i been getting it perfected (although i didnt want it to take so long) i shoulda just said eff it...cuz now im 8 days behind! more posts to come...prolly tonight...cuz i miss yall!! lol

Hope yall think the signature is worth the wait! My bf did it <3

lol. im such a loser...duh, rieka...if u save a post as a draft...Blogger automatically puts the date u initially wrote it! lol. I guess this aint my first post of the new yr, but guess what?? i dont feel like changing what i wrote above...i kinda like it lol So what??

New Year...Fresh Start

Yay! Its a new year and i got optimism comin outta my butt!!

Things in my life a rollercoasterish right now (dont worry, ill spare u the details). But its rollercoasterish bc some things are goin pretty good like my grades and my relationship with my bf...and some things are pretty sucky like my relationship with my family, my empty pockets, and inability to get a freakin job.

So these are the things i hope to accomplish this year:


-Gotta get my relationship with God exactly where it needs to be

-Keep this 4.0 i got goin right now in this program im in.

-graduate from this program,

-get a decent job hopefully at a OB/GYN or pediatric office until the end of the year...then on to a Nursing program for next year.

-get a job SOME DAMN WHERE for now so i can pay my damn bills and save up for a new car...cuz this one aint cuttin it

-Hopefully take my relationship to **the next level** whatever that may be...i guess u'll see ;)

-Get it together wit my mom =/

-Get a better crib when this lease is up in August

-Enjoy my 24th birthday this summer!!

-Celebrate my bf and my 2 year anniversary this summer also

big plans...but im sure i can work it all out. I love the positivity that comes along with a new year...the fresh start. Ima go head and make this the best year yet. Im anticipating mad changes and hopefully they all will be for the better :)

U know what? Bump dat! He gets his own post today!!

Yeah, screw all dat im dedicating this whole blog post to my baby brother JaVon aka JaVi...cuz its his BIRTHDAY TODAY and @ 12 years old he been through a lotta mess in his life and he been extra strong. so here's some pix...

Whoopin my butt in Fight Night...


Fake sleepin...u aint foolin nobody!


Aint we the cutest??



So u cool now, huh?



Happy Birthday, Boo Boo...i love you!

Deuces...
RiekaBaby

I cant think of a title for this one,,,who cares?

I would like to start this post off wit a shout out (yes, i said shout out! lol) To my favorite lil man in the WORLD, my baby brother JaVon. He is 12 today!! Yay!


(its a pretty old pic but he still looks the same, just a lil taller) anyways...
Happy Birthday JaVi!!

Next on the agenda,

I'm yet to post any pix from Thanxgiving and Christmas...at first it was bc i was too lazy to upload them. But now, its bc i cant find the cord that goes from my camera to my computer! so, my plan is to post the few pix that i took on my phone. hope its good enough for u all =/

Thanksgiving...

so first off...Que's lil cousin Jehlan...2 year old cutie...he had a mini crush on me! I <3 him lol






At BD's Mongolian BBQ wit Que and my mom-in-law on our last night in Ohio. It was pretty dope.






Que's brand new first nephew, Asher isnt he cute??


Here is Que playing with Asher...



I have a million Asher pix, and it would be impossible (possible, just too lazy) for me to post them all...but this one is the cutest.

Thanxgiving overall was pretty fun. I woulda had more pix but i was meetin my bf's fam for the first time, so the last thing i wanted to do was to snap pix in their faces all day! lol. But the food was extra good, and everybody seemed to like me =)

Christmas...

All i really have to show from Christmas was MY PLATE!! lol.

Clockwise, starting at the top: Glazed Ham, broccoli, rice and peas, oxtail, potato salad, scalloped potatoes, and baked mac n cheese...mmm...ya ahoulda seen my take home plate! lol

Christmas was decent. Coulda been better (if i woulda just stayed my butt home...just me and my man...) but, It wasnt about me, it was about Christ, and he got his honor.

Happy New Year Everyone!!

Deuces...
RiekaBaby

I need ur help...

So its about dat time to get my do re-did...lol. So i need help. I need for yall to tell me what my next hairstyle should be...ok, the options are (drumroll please):

Kinky Twists (throwback 2006 pic)


Micros


OR...

Bangs (my current look)


(Click on the pic for a better view)

Tell me what you think!! Thanx!!

Deuces...
RiekaBaby

idk...

Hello all...

Damn, i guess im startin off this month kinda late. I still gotta update u all on my thanxgiving in Ohio with the future in laws. Ive been to lazy to upload the pix so i can make an all-inclusive post...but ill get to it. soon enough i guess.

So lately, my facebook statuses have looked a lot like this:

Sharieka Bryan is idk.

There's nothin wrong wit me, i just been in this mood lately in which i am neither happy nor sad. I just be thinkin too hard. Like, everything that is goin on in my life is goin thru my head all at the same time. And its not all day that i feel like this...its only at night. I know im not depressed cuz it really aint dat damn serious, but its really annoying. Im just gonna have to pray about it cuz its really not a good look. My bf asked me about 20 min ago, "Rieka, Whats wrong?" and i really didnt know what to say. idk. oh well. yall think im crazy??
lemme know.


deuces...
RiekaBaby

So Excited...

SO...GUESS WHAT?!

I booked my flight to go wit the (future) hubby to OHIO for thanxgiving!!! YAY!! I already met his mom, dad, aunt, and grandmother...but this month i will be surrounded by EVERBODY ELSE thats in his family!! Including his step-mom, his brothers, sister-in-in law, brand new nephew, and like a million uncles and cousins! Im really excited to meet everyone and im probabley JUST AS excited bout all the freakin food!!!

but here's the thing...

I wasnt able to get the same flight as him...matter of fact...we aint even on the same airline! And i will be in Ohio for a whole 5 HOURS b4 he gets there!!! WTF? What the hell am i gonna do?? I'll be with his step-mom and his lil brother, and maybe even his dad...scary. I'm really nervous about that. What will i do till he gets there? anybody ever been in a similar predicament??

Well, im excited overall. I'm sure it will be fun. We'll be there from the tuesday till sunday. I'll return with pics. Till then...



deuces,
RiekaBaby


*This Trey Songz album ain't no joke! Jupiter Love*

Wedding Bells???

So i was on Facebook for a while this evening. And i noticed a pattern. Madd ppl i went to HS with (c/o 2004!! lol) have either gotten married, or are engaged! Not half as much as the ones who had kids...but some are married WITH kids! I was fb messaging a friend from high school who was 2 yrs behind me...and this dude is married wit 3 kids!!! say word? He's 21 years old and done having children!

Anyways...many of my friends have either an engagement ring, or a wedding band (including my BESTIE Cheryl!! I cant wait to be the maid of honor in her Spring 2010 nuptials!!).

My BFF Cheryl and her awesome fiance Ari...i heart them! lol


The ring!


LOL

But every time i see ppl flashin their rings...i get kinda anxious! Not to be confused with jealousy...no need for all that! lol. It just makes me think of how happy i will be when its my turn!! It will be awesome. I just hope my bf does something cute and creative...i dont want no "spur of the moment" proposal...i want somethin prepared damnit!! LOL

deuces....
RiekaBaby

WTF...

my mom is on facebook :-

So this is what you missed

I guess this is an update post since IM BACK NOW! ya missed a lot.

Im 23 now! whooo hooo!!! And it feels great! A bit contrary to my feelings from 5 months ago: read it here

A lot has happened in the past few months...most will be omitted from this post lol. But my birthday was pretty fun. I got up and just hung out at the crib wit my man, then we went to Movie Tavern to see the latest Harry Potter movie. after that, we went back to the crib...i changed up and put on my birthday dress wit my black peeptoe pumps and went to Ruby Tuesdays on Virginia Ave. The ribs were bomb. After that, we kicked it wit our boy Marcus and some other folks at his new apt.

Also, in August, i moved the hell outta Clayton county Georgia...Thank God...and now i am in the beautiful Dunwoody/Sandy Springs/Perimeter area...although my address says Atlanta...smh. Anyway...i love it here! its much closer to things including Perimeter mall where i seen Lloyd, Biz Markie, and Mike Bibby...and also Lenox Square Mall...where everybody be! That works for me.

My bf and i actually moved here together. Its his apartment, but im just here temporarily till i can get a job so i can get my own (hopefully across the hall lol). We're not ready to live together yet...its not of God. (Not to condemn anyone...that's just how we feel)

Speaking of the bf...in my older posts, i was super excited about us reaching our one year mark. Now its been over a year and three months!! still goin strong. By FAR my longest relationship ever!! Our anniversary was July 8th and despite our plans for the day, it rained, so we kept it simple and went to Olive Gardens (the place we had our first date) and just chilled for the night.

*side bar*
Its like 3:30 am and these 2 ladies just knocked on my door!! WTF? Apparently one of em just got beaten by her boyfriend or husband and i guess they escaped. They needed to use a phone to call a ride cuz their car got impounded, plus they needed money for a cab...crazy. I let them use my phone and gave them a couple bucks and prayed to myself for their safety. Good thing I'm still up.

anyways...im sleepy, and i never seen this episode of Three's Company before so ima watch it...deuces.

oh btw...like the new layout???

IM BACK NIGGAZ!!! lol

Wuss goin' on blogger? i know i been SUPER ghost most of the summer and all of the fall and i apologize. I guess life got in the way. Plus my laptop needs a new hard drive. Its been jacked up for a minute now.

Anyways...Hopefully I'll be back permanently now :)

Kimmy...my Kimmy

I know i been ghost for a MINUTE...and i will update soon...just not right now. 

I been kinda having a tough day. Today, July 31st, 2009 WOULD HAVE been the 22nd birthday of one of my closest cousins Kimone Alicia Anderson.

But she past away last September. She was in a car accident in Miami on I-95. I didnt find out until over a week later bc my number was in *her* phone. So i missed her funeral.

Its been tough on the family, and im still not even kinda ready to accept the fact that she's gone.

So i spent some time crying today.

I could go one forever talkin about her...and i will say more soon...just not right now...

I love u, Kimmy...till next time...

Dang, its been a minute

Im back! Im sure yall dont be missin me that hard...but its cool...

I gotta let u all know how it went with my future mom-in-law...

Well not only did I meet her, I met my bf's grandma, aunt, AND uncle!

how did it go, u ask??

They LOVE me!! and I LOVE THEM!!!

It went awesome! He told me not to worry bout it...but I didnt listen. I worried for nothing! This makes me even more excited about our future...hopefully a trip to Ohio this summer is in order...they say they cant wait to see me again...::blush::

xoxo
RiekaBaby

Meet the Parents...

Hello Blogger!!

I know I been ghost again! oh well...I got stuff goin on. The point of this post is...

I meet my future mother-in-law today!!!

I'm sooo nervous! I spoke to her on the phone a handful of times...and I tell my bf to tell her I say "hi" whenever he speaks to her on the phone. She seems to like me so far, but who knows. I'm nervous cuz soo many women have issues with their mother-in-law (including my mom and grandma. lol) I dont want that to be me. I want us to get along great...although he IS her only child :-/

idk...

any advice?

Im sure this might be my most random update post ever...u love it!

This is like my 4th post for the day...and its only 9am! WTF? I know right...

Well, I been up all night...as I have for like the past 5 nights. It started Tuesday night while cramming for my first final. Not a good look. Cuz I was super tired during the test. Slept all day Wednesday then was up all night...thus beginning a very vicious cycle.

But screw what the calender says...my summer began Friday afternoon! NO more school for me till the fall...thank God, cuz im soo tired!

*sidebar*

Watchin Spongebob...never seen this episode. Squidward had surgery and got handsome!! LOL. I love this show!!

So...b4 my recent barage (sp?) of posts...I havent had a post in almost a month! Bad Rieka!! I also plan to post pix but...my computer hasn't been workin and I dont feel like puttin my digital camera software on my bf's laptop. School's over now. Got lazy. Dont trip...its only temporary.

My mom is doin fine...thanx for caring and praying. Yay, its mother's day! Gotta go hang out wit her today. Happy Mother's day to all the mommies that will feast their eyes on this blog! One time for one of my best friend's in the world...Robin...the mother of my God-babies Joshua (2) and Nia (1). I heart them :)

Friday was my bf and my 10 month monthi-versary! Yay! Almost to a year...cant wait.

I NEED a job for the summer. Gotta make dis bread, cuh!

Anyways...im sure there may be a million more posts for the day. I guess I been bottling up a lot in the past few weeks. Still gotta talk about the playoffs and why I love the NBA!

Stay tuned all day!

xoxo

RiekaBaby

Gettin Old...

Hey everyone!! ya miss me? Its been a super hot minute...lotta stuff been goin on in my life. I'm sure to blog about some of it later.

So my roomate *Danielle* turned 22 last Monday. Yay! Happy belated birthday! But anyways, that day, we had a conversation about how freakin old we're getting and how time is flying by!

I turn 23 in a couple months which sounds so old! Sorry to the ppl older than me...lol...I dont mean to offend anyone. But I coulda swore I just turned 22! Ages 19-22 feels so recent. And I think about it like this...

when u turn 21...u think ur grown cuz u can buy liquor and everything....go to 21+ clubs and stuff. But ur still kinda brand new to being grown.

when u turn 22...U really start to feel grown because...hey, u been buyin drinks for a while now! U can go to any club u want to! (which i dont care about cuz I dont do that anymore) But 22 feels gr8 to be honest. I feel like a big girl now. I can do whatever I want, without having to answer to anyone. I'm comfortable here. lol.

now 23...that just sounds old! Even now I have a hard time realizing how grown I am! lol. But at 23, you are more experienced with a lot of things. At this point you been buying drinks for a long time. Ur a vet! And ur even closer to 30! LOL

Idk, maybe I'm just aprehensive about getting older. 22 is the age that madd ppl in there 40s reminisce on! Once our youth is all over...we cant get it back! Although, the most important goal I have in life is to have a family...I'm sure I will miss these days.

Danielle and I also came to the realization that...one of the main reasons we are worried about it is bc we feel like we are not enjoying it like we should...all bc of SCHOOL! We spend so much time in school and studying that we feel like our youth is flying by! Its so hard to live like you want with all that goin on. But I have no option. So my goal is to live everyday to the fullest...and see what happens :)

xoxo
RiekaBaby!

Lemme tell u bout this LAME nigga....

So..me and my girl Shan went to the mall yesterday (Southlake) and when we walked in the door at the food court entrance...this chick and a guy walked out the door. So lemme tell u bout this chick hair...

I guess she was tryna do the whole Unique from Ray J show look wit her hair...but i didnt work because it was SUPER easy to see them big blonde tracks across her head! She had her real hair (which was kinda red) glued down wit a jar of gel...then the tracks were sittin on top...wtf?

So when we walked by them, Shan and i looked at each other crazy wit dat WTF face...then i said, "Hell wrong wit her tracks?"

THEN...

Some nigga who was apparently with her that was stragglin behind stopped and said to me..."What u said?"

So i was like...

"What the hell u talkin bout?"

Then he said..."Thats my folk...what u said about her?"

Then i said..."hold up...was i even talkin to u bruh?" He kept repeatin "Thats my folk" like i gave a damn...he know her tracks messed up!! He know better than i know! He knew exactly what i said cuz he know her weave is jacked up!!

So while his dumb behind proceeded out the door (cuz his punk behind wasnt gonna do anything) I kept sayin to him..."i wasnt even talkin to u, bruh! i dont even know u! Keep it movin!"

I'm just sayin...What was he plannin on doin by questionin me? U gon come over here and Chris Brown me?? Nigga u aint crazy!! He super lame 4 that...im a girl! U bout to come in my face bout some ol dumb mess like that??

Das a b**** move, bruh...man up.